Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Alan Watts introduction
Below is a video featuring Alan Watts audio.
The link below has several clips that are actually produced by the guys from South Park & go along great with audio of Alan's talks from the 1960's-70's. They're not long.
YOU WILL ENJOY THESE TOO!
http://www.freshminds.com/animation/alan_watts_theater.html
Poets and musicians will especially enjoy these(Life & Madness)
Monday, June 15, 2009
my sugar issues vent
Tonight I just laid down still for a while in the dark, like I have done in the past, and blind spot(s) eventually went away. When I'd look directly at something I couldn't see it with that one eye...I had to look to the side of what I wanted to see in order to see it with that eye.
I've had a history of high sugar(testing my sugar with sugar meters), but have no money, no insurance, no way of getting checked out. Unless I go tell one place I live in my car, then maybe I could get some help...lol.
Either way, I feel ok now....and like many people, I'll just go on until can't go anymore and no doubt have to go to the doctor. It'd be nice to have health insurance.
Anyway, i feel like my sugar's low now.....though, I don't have any test strips to really find out. Being broke sucks, i bet my readers will agree with that.
Have a good week everyone!
Peace!!!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
babblegum June 13
Our memory starts working right after something happens. We gather an impression. We also conjure up presuppositions and memes handed down from tradition to paint up so called, "new impressions." What's Real can't be put into memory. Memory is memory. Real is real.....real is what is......not the past in memory.
We don't know anyone. We don't know ourselves. Only know what we see and remember and choose to notice. Do we notice things about ourselves, like how we look when we're not noticing? So why isn't that a part of who we consider ourselves? Who we think of as ourselves contains no information about how our skin renews itself. Maybe in some cultures it might. So, our selves.......are conditional.
We see through the kaleidoscope goggles of our own experiences mixing with what we appear to be seeing at any given moment....mixing memory with new impressions we gather by consulting memory as to what we think we're seeing.
A child might look at a pattern on the wall, and make a big deal out of it, saying, "what is that?" We, as adults, might not even notice what they're looking at. They might be looking at a shadow in between three dots on the wall paper. To us there might not be a pattern. We notice other patterns they don't notice.
The difficult thing to do is reach the end of thought and also being able to use it without being swept into old currents of emotion attached to certain thoughts or opinions.
Talking with a friend about playing music, listening, seeing innocence of their thinking, seeing them as the universe, not just a link in the universe, not just a stepping stone to carry on life, but the universe renewing itself in innocence of forgetting itself as each human being.....the innocence of everyone....that we know not what we do.
As with each new baby, the universe will carry on. As with each cell and organism throughout the universe, it will carry on through renewal.
This impression points at life....beyond word, beyond the world of words and language that we live in. The world of language, symbols, and images is like a dream we dream while awake.
Can we really know anything beyond words? Beyond images, concepts, symbols? Beyond language? That's the thing we've been trying to find out......whether or not we can grab the REAL and put it into memory. The way we've been living is making impressions of what's in front of us and creating images, then creating images of images and stories about those images of images and stories of the stories of the images of images....echoes creating an avalanche...living in thought, losing touch with the real.
Our society demands obedience, loyalty to the machine, to the software of our cultures....to ....to the worship of language and definition according to a given culture's value systems. Words, language, concepts, ....are a river of substitution of the real and present. Images are stand ins. We can be right in front of someone and only see the image we have of them in our minds. We can look ourselves and only see the image we hold of our selves. That image will change many millions of times before we die, so which image was the right one? None of them really. They were masks....added up to fit particular situations. We're attempting to know someone like we know how to count to 10.
Who's to say we're supposed to be anything at any given time in this life? Be your own authority. Don't answer to me or anyone else, especially when it comes to your life's details......that's what I say.
"Ultimate authority is no authority..."--can't remember where I read that.
When we are in need of peace of mind, acceptance of what has already happened is the hardest and most important thing we can learn.
We know not what we do.....everything is as it should be....for now....until it changes.....again...and again.
Back to the role(s)!!!
Peace
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
after satori quote
Questioner: But doesn't enlightenment clear away imperfections and personality flaws?
Roshi(Philip Kapleau): No, it shows them up! Before Awakening, one can easily ignore or rationalize his shortcomings, but after enlightenment this is no longer possible. One’s failings are painfully evident. Yet at the time a strong determination develops to rid oneself of them. Even opening the Mind's eye fully does not at one fell swoop purify the emotions. Continuous training after enlightenment is required to purify the emotions so that our behavior accords with our understanding. This vital point must be understood.
life is one big ol' sand mandala
The past few days I'd been thinking: "Life is one big ol' sand mandala." I used to say it was "one big day." Then I heard Alan Watts say we live in a "Rorschach blot," which we could agree with that as well. The sand mandala thing is just too right on. The Tibetan Buddhist monks create these beautiful sand mandalas and then after they're done, they sweep up the sand into a jar. Or at least that's what I remember from it. It captures our lives. Everything in our lives is like these sand mandalas. Nothing permanent, everything fleeting unable to be fixed. They're fragile..so is life and everything in life.
A friend sent me some fitting quotes from Osho today:
"Nothing belongs to you, nothing can belong to you. One is a homeless wanderer in the very nature of things. Time is impermanent. Time means the temporary. Time cannot have any eternal home in it. To make a home in time is to make a house on the sands, or to make a signature in water - you go on making it; it goes on disappearing."
-Osho
You cannot possess anything, it is impossible to possess anything. Life is insecurity and there is no way to become secure. Death is coming and will destroy all your securities, so don't be bothered. Understand the insecurity of life, accept it - in that very acceptance you become secure.
-Osho
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
an introduction to J. Krishnamurti
The below link is a talk from the 1950's, it's a good quick introduction to his talks.
http://www.jiddu-krishnamurti.net/en/1950_madras/1950-02-05_madras_3rd_public_talk_5th_february_1950.html
The core of Krishnamurti's teaching is contained in the statement he made in 1929 when he said:
"Truth is a Pathless land."
Man cannot come to it through any organization, through any creed, through any dogma, priest or ritual, not through any philosophic knowledge or psychological technique. He has to find it through the mirror of relationship, through the understanding of the contents of his own mind, through observation and not through intellectual analysis or introspective dissection. Man has built in himself images as a fence of security--religious, political, personal. These manifest as symbols, ideas, beliefs. The burden of these images dominates man's thinking, his relationships and his daily life. These images are the causes of our problems for they divide man from man. His perception of life is shaped by the concepts already established in his mind. The content of his consciousness is his entire existence. This content is common to all humanity. The individuality is the name, the form and superficial culture he acquires from tradition and environment. The uniqueness of man does not lie in the superficial but in complete freedom from the content of his consciousness, which is common to all mankind. So he is not an individual.
Freedom is not a reaction: freedom is not choice. It is man's pretence that because he has choice he is free. Freedom is pure observation without direction, without fear of punishment and reward. Freedom is without motive; freedom is not at the end of the evolution of man but lies in the first step of his existence. In observation one begins to discover the lack of freedom. Freedom is found in the choiceless awareness of our daily existence and activity.
Thought is time. Thought is born of experience and knowledge which are inseparable from time and the past. Time is the psychological enemy of man. Our action is based on knowledge and therefore time, so man is always a slave to the past. Thought is ever-limited and so we live in constant conflict and struggle. There is no psychological evolution.
When man becomes aware of the movement of his own thoughts he will see the division between the thinker and the thought, the observer and the observed, the experiencer and the experience. He will discover that this division is an illusion. Then only is there pure observation which is insight without any shadow of the past or of time. This timeless insight brings about a deep radical mutation in the mind.
Total negation is the essence of the positive. When there is negation of all those things that thought has brought about psychologically, only then is there love, which is compassion and intelligence.
This statement was originally written by Krishnamurti himself in 1980.
FOR MORE visit this page and check out MANY TALKS(&books):
http://www.jiddu-krishnamurti.net/en/index.php
Some big names who were drawn to his ideas(if that helps with his "cred"):
- Dalai Lama
- Eric Clapton
- Aldous Huxley
- Alan W. Watts
- Kahlil Gibrab
- Hurricane Carter
- Greta Garbo
- Deepak Chopra
- Van Morrison
- Helen Keller
- Charlie Chaplin
- George Bernard Shaw
- David Bohm
His words seemed dry and lifeless at times early on, but over the years, they ring more and more true as my understanding of myself grew. I've read from different ideas/teachings....seeing how they are different, throwing out some superstitions that never really helped in understanding myself. I'll probably have blind spots. I'm sure there will blind spots, but my problem has usually been beating myself up for mistakes. In understanding myself, in reflecting on things I've read, ideas I've used......I've learned to not beat myself up quite as much. That's helped finding other blind spots, because less energy used to beat myself up for mis-stepping or making mistakes....which is just another wave of the mind. "The dart" sutta(sutra)...was helpful in that. It's called, "Sallatha Sutta." Gil Fronsdal talked about the buddha's speech on the "second arrow" in one of his mp3's. I never knew where his source was for that..until recently...
Lauren found the actual text on "the dart"(arrow) I'd been searching for ..for a few years.
http://www.accesstoinsight.org/tipitaka/sn/sn36/sn36.006.than.html
Ok, so this was more than I wanted to say, but hope this is useful somehow.
Cheers!
