insomnia inspired blog & what might have been

These were taken from my other blog(clipped out extra stuff):

Roles
Once you realize the role(s) you're in, when it comes to family or whatever...you realize your role is to be done no matter whether you're recognized for it or not. I'm pulling out of the funk I was in this past year....and hopefully will continue to stay in the clear view.

Communication
I'm finding that a lot of frustration that builds up when there's a mis-communication is that I was not able to communicate effectively. If communication was the goal, I couldn't take personal anything that was said(or the fact that I am misunderstood). I would put more energy in communication than taking anything personal.

Benefit of the doubt
Generally I try to start each day, a new day....I don't want to hold grudges. I try to give the benefit of the doubt....by letting go of things. I do remember things, but try not to let it get in the way.

Insomnia

I am currently suffering from the "every other day insomnia." It's every other night, not night after night.....I can't sleep. (Written December of 2008)

Extra blog from Dec.2008:
"what might have been"

Any thought of "what might have been" is a recipe for pain/distress/etc. It can cause the SUPER-ECHO that causes a mental avalanche of despair. NOTE: (You'll enjoy this mp3)Here's an Alan W. Watts mp3, that talks about self consciousness being an echo. http://diydharma.org/audio/download/1355/Alan+Watts+-+05+-+The+limits+of+self-awareness.mp3

Won't go into details...but I know that most of us do this at some point in our lives. Just thought I'd bring it up, in case this helps someone realize they're doing it and to stop it!! You're not alone in looking back, but you can't go back, you can only go from where you are......its always now....the blank slate to keep living and doing something from here. Only you can change how you think...and when you do, its always NOW. Let go, no regrets...we all would've done something different if we could go back....all of us would change something if we could go back......but we can't....it doesn't work like that.

You can only shape your thinking here and now by making peace with those "bricks in that suitcase"...heal, let go...and go from here.

Even if you have to make peace with it, over and over during your whole life....always have to do the same thing. Make peace with and accept things as they already are......and go from here in the present moment.

Of course, I'm telling myself this more than I'm telling you this....hopefully it helps someone.