what I tell myself during the blues

(Taken from my myspace blog & edited/updated)

I tell myself this as much as anyone reading.
The moments I find any sort of peace after distress/depression(or whatever) are usually when the attention pulls away and drops away from ideas and images of what I think is going on and settles in the present moment.

In a way its like being happy to just exist at all...happy to experience the "ups and downs and everything in between" at all. It's an unspoken/"gestured" agreement & acceptance that the package deal of living/existing means...you're going to have ups AND downs...possibly gain and loss......all things that come to you, will go in one way or another. All things are temporary. No one really "has" anything so to speak....no more, no less...we're all in the same boat. We could get technical at different levels, but let's not and say that we did......for now...lol.

We buy into definitions as psychological currency and social stock....and play that game, but we still have a choice...a choice to see the limitation we put on ourselves when we do play that game of defining our life as this or that.....how can you be a definition...if its an object of awareness? Or even a bunch of words? Or even the idea you have of yourself?? You're not an idea...because if you were, how could you be aware of it...if its you...if its you, who's aware of it? When you're 20 you're going to define your life one way, when you're 30 it'll be another way, when you're 80....it'll be another way....So, which definition was right? Or are self-definitions like condoms? Ok, maybe that was a bit of a stretch. ;) I know that we need meaning in our lives, and so, I'll stop there. That's another subject we can delve into later. "Is there already meaning, before we search for it?" That is a good question.

Don't compare your life with anothers either. Its your own music....check it out...dance to it. What would you tell a child if they were down on their luck?? Tell yourself what you'd tell a child who's finding their way in life. We're just older sophisticated children...we don't have this figured out all the way....we're always finding our way.